Abstract
Using a qualitative exploratory grounded theory methodology, this dissertation in practice (DIP) shed light on the positive effects of trauma within the leadership paradigm by exploring how the spiritual and reflective practices of 12-step recovery programs enabled members to metabolize trauma in leadership (both intrapersonally and interpersonally). Framed in the “being” component of leadership and underpinned with the conceptual dynamics of paradoxical thinking, monomythic narrative patterning, and positive psychology, this DIP illustrates the need to explore the positive determinants, consequences, and outcomes of metabolized trauma on leadership. Data Analysis from 20 in-depth interviews generated the following findings: 4 shadow (trauma) narratives, with 12 accompanying paradoxical dialogues, spiraled participants into spiritual breakdown/bankruptcy and subsequent awakening. Through spiritual and reflective practices, participants began metabolizing shadow narratives into new mental models or paradigm shifts that changed their beliefs, values, and leadership. The resulting storylines are the who, how, and what of Trauma Inspired Leadership (TIL). They include 4 harmony narratives with 12 accompanying paradoxical dialogues. It is from this conceptual model that the theoretical definition of TIL emerges. This paper concludes acknowledging the impact for socialization of TIL theory at micro, mezzo, and macro levels, while making recommendations for the micro and mezzo levels specifically. Keywords: grounded theory, leadership, metabolized trauma, narrative, paradox, spiritual and reflective practice, Trauma Inspired Leadership